BPD and its affects on my life
Saturday Sept 4th
This is the first time I have done this so I want to put up a warning that my blog will contain graphic language and will have heavy sexual language and content. A BPD is generally, not always, a sexual deviant and sex is a very important part of her/his nature.
I have this thing called BPD and it has a way of sneaking up and biting me in my ass. Somehow its like it has a life of its own and a will of its own DESPITE everything I try to do. As in every other time its almost ALWAYS to have to do with me being in a relationship. It definately works against me to self destruct the relationship. Trust doesnt come easy, if at all. It becomes a prove yourself ritual that includes jumping thru fire hoops and other various circus tricks. My boyfriend has been succesfully jumping for about two years now. Now dont go and feel sorry him people. He has earned SOME of my mistrust, well alot of it, BUT not ALL! However, since he decided to move in with me in July its gotten really bad. More about this later, I am really tired its 3 am, I just wanted to introduce myself and get this thing started. - Rainy